Holidays almost gone….
Just one more week and it’s back to work… this last week is number six of my first summer off in almost 25 years and not sweating buckets in a grubby hole in retail.
Heaven. No back to school dramas of mums who shop the week before school goes back (why does your inability to manage the inevitability of new term become my responsibility?). No shitty clueless manager trying school playground games for attention (nobody likes you or rates you. Dry your eyes and move on prick). No fat greedy pirate pissing my pension into the Mediterranean (I don’t think karma or the government are doing enough). Instead I have a garden that looks cared for and a son that is happy with his lot. I’ve managed some decorating and keeping fit. My time has been spread between family and English Heritage – no deadlines or rushing. No excuses for not having the time to meet up and catch up. And all the while I haven’t had to phone in sick to enjoy my sons company- palming him off to a (brilliant) childminder when he just wants to be at home. So, thank you new job for enabling me and my life choices; I choose poor bank account and contented heart which = me at ground zero. Now I’m ready to rebuild, rediscover and re-establish that which makes me, me.
Kinda daunting though.
After all the superficial people and things in retail (I was good at what I did and was distracted with all the shiny-shiny) I’m considering a new career in education… I’ve narrowed it down to KS3 and the public sector. However, private schools give you a free lunch, gym membership and lots off school fees…
But despite that, will I be able to juggle a government led syllabus with helping young people make sensible life choices? Will I just be tired and repetitive going through the motions because I’m down to cover three maths classes instead of preparing for an exciting hour of discovery? Will my enthusiasm be knocked out of me in the first week? Changing my career now – was that the right thing to do?
I can’t go back. I don’t want to go back, but at least I know the past. My future’s a little blurred around the edges and I’m uncomfortable with not being able to work out the details. But there’s no choice really- I’ve begun this roller coaster ride and can’t get off……………. education here I come!!!!!